No More DeZires

All I want remains nothing.(BTW, tht Z in desires coz, my firewall's denying access to the word desires)

No more dreams,
no more passions,
no more nights,
no new fashions.

Enough of this life,
I cannot fight this strife,
there is no tunnel to hide and escape.
As I keep walking,
people look at the loser and gape.

My parents deserved someone better,
I have betrayed them enough,
their life is already tough,
I can see their concealed dissapointment,
And now the pressure I need to vent.

I can sleep no more,
life has become a bloody gore,
each day and night,
I try to turn things right,
at the end of the day,
I never see light.
To darkness, I retreat,
And keep sobbing under its covers.

Now I cannot talk,
my eyes want to speak
and my heart wants to sink.

As I keep writing,
I hope for hope to come back
to leave u need to cheat,
and all your friends you need to beat.
This is not to be called "greed"
To my death, Wine I'll feed