Social, Am I?

I dont give a damn about what people think. Yes, I am ready to face the wrold however wierdly it okks me in the eye. NO, I am not just another failure. I am determined and equally hungry for success. It's just that my norms for success and my levels of desc. of success are very different from others. Marks do define your success. Not just marks but a lot of other things. But, When you are not ready to run, will you run when the whistle goes?? Or will you wait for the race to end and join in the next race? The audience will look at you like a creature in the zoo. They find anything that is not done according to the tradition as idiotic, funny and very interesting to listen too. There are, of course, people who care. People, who want to know why this happened.
Look at playmates, for example. They open up all their shame. They undress and get pictures taken. Will you allow that for money? I already hear "SICK!!!"...

Looking at people scurrying to dig up one more mark before the exam usually inspired me to do the same. But now, it isnt. Now, I want to do well with a preparation that is well too. Look at businessmen for example, thay take risks. Bold risks, small risks, risks that may never pay off......But, sometimes, when you know it is right, u'll do it. And soon, you'll know why you were right.

And this is not the time. Impossible to me is temporary. Impossible to me is a word that will be deleted. But, time is what stands between me and impossible and surrounding us, is every creature I know, some very good, very helpful some just standing there to enjoy what they think is Failure.
Even now, as I type that word, I think twice. I hate that word. Yes, every one wants success and yes, people do hit failure. But, why? what is failure anyway? Is it flunking your exams? IS it not putting up enough hard work? Is it thinking of things not necessary at that time and place. The word " interest " has lost it's meaning here. When you opt for electives, you are supposed to be taking things that you have elected, chosen. I did not choose mine. The college chose them for me and gift wrapped them with a threatening call for Fr, due to attendance shortage.

I am just short of Success and tears. Whether I get success first or tears, it does not matter. I know I was brave in doing what I have done. I love myself and I'll see to it that whatever hits me, I stay onboard and on the right ship.

Not in ICT