is never to show your back! and well if you did, face it full in the front now. Hope is a kill-joy for the future sometimes. I can't look back at things I havent done because I did not. I havent done things because I did not feel like. I did not feel like doing them because I did not realize their place in my life. I stopped building pillars as I could not see the house!
It has been a long time since I have given words to floating thoughts. I have been losing thoughts. Random sparks have abandoned me. Nostalgia, good moments, bad moments, everything eludes memory. I have to try to remember and it hurts. Rust
